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Why Can't Things Just Happen?

Why Can't Things Just Happen?

Things never just happen. It took us millions of years to get where we are today. And if even the Buddha had to wait 6 years and 49 days for his breakthrough, maybe I can survive a few more days or weeks of something (especially important) without losing my mind as well.

The Pendulum: Between Everything and Nothing

The Pendulum: Between Everything and Nothing

Weird, I know. But maybe that's my life — a rollercoaster of emotions with no seatbelt. After all, I was diagnosed with Bipolar, so I guess that explains a few things.

Low Battery Mode: Time to Recharge

Low Battery Mode: Time to Recharge

He didn't say I should give up, but he made it clear I don't have the unlimited resources and energy to fight every war. You can lose every battle. But you can't lose yourself. Because if you do, there's nothing left to fight for.

People Might Not Like You. And That’s Okay.

People Might Not Like You. And That’s Okay.

For most of my life, I've carried one irrational fear: that everyone I know secretly hates me. Not just that I want to be liked — I want to walk into every room and be clapped for, like I just pulled a rabbit out of a hat.

Therapy Is Not Linear: And That’s the Point

Therapy Is Not Linear: And That’s the Point

There is no final session. No finishing line. Just a quiet kind of resilience. And the decision to keep going, again and again.

Am I Really Depressed – Or Just Faking It?

Am I Really Depressed – Or Just Faking It?

Mental health can be funny sometimes. Your wounds aren't visible to the naked eye, and quite often you get stigmatized just for talking about it. And most of the time, the harshest judgment comes from within.

The Knox Files: Entry Two—An Open Secret

The Knox Files: Entry Two—An Open Secret

Still, I don't know what that means. Well, I do—it’s a simple sentence, but I don’t know what it’s supposed to mean.