More Espresso, Less Depresso

My day typically starts before you.
I'm tucked in a package, sometimes sealed in a capsule, or sometimes chilling in a ready-made bottle–always ready to embark on an adventure.
But no matter the form, my purpose stays the same: to wake you up.
At least in the morning anyway.

Some days, you meet me with gratitude and make me feel like this is a place I belong.
You take a sip, sigh, and ramble on about how you work in an agency where we must listen and obey the client's ridiculous always-urgent requests every time and have practically no power to fight back.
"I needed this", you said.
And I'm so glad I could be of use to you once again.

On other days, you don't even let the ice melt and gulp me down in one sip, barely noticing the taste of me even though you specifically ordered your speciality light-roasted dripped coffee.
It's okay. I understand that some mornings are tough and you have to be on your toes all the time.
Oh, what do I know? I'm just a coffee. Human emotions are too complex for me to grasp.

One day, you sit me down on the table with a book in your hands.
The pages were turning, and turning, and turning.
I don't know what it does, to be honest.
But on a rare occasion, I see you happy.

Then there are days when you just lie still.
Not asleep, just paused. No motion. No movement.
I tried calling out, but I have no mouth—no voice—so you couldn’t hear me.
I wish I could help you.

I may not understand, but I do notice things.
Like your weird awkward laugh when you don't know how to respond to your friend yapping about their life.
Like when you rub against the bridge of your nose because you're feeling too nervous. (and I know I sometimes make your anxiety worse. I'm sorry I wish I could’ve warned you)
Like when you stare at the computer for unhealthily way too long after checking your emails.
I was worried about you, still am, and will always have been.

You think I only exist to wake you up.
But sometimes, I just sit with you.
No judgment. No expectations.
Just me, you, and the ice, sometimes your iPad reading your favourite book.

...And the quiet reminder that not everything in life has to be loud to matter.

*****

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